I feel compelled to say something about the experience of performing Kodachrome at Actors Bridge but it is hard to know where to begin.
The short story is that performing Kodachrome at The Actors Bridge was an incredible experience. The play, the people, the emotions… This work was a gift to be a part of in countless ways & I am grateful to have had the opportunity.
The deeper dive is that being a part of this production was a big thing for me. What I keep going back to in my mind is the incredible leap of faith that Rachel Agee took in trusting me – a random woman she’d never met or (I’m assuming) ever seen perform in a theatre prior to my showing up in front of her at auditions – with the central character of her Directorial Debut. And then, after getting over the initial shock that I was indeed cast & it wasn’t some sort of clerical error, I read the full script and it made me laugh & cry. And then I met the rest of the cast and they are INCREDIBLE actors (& humans, who I will very much miss getting to see multiple times a week). And then I found out the play-write Adam Szymkowicz was. Coming. To. See. It.
Real Talk: I was terrified of failing. Failing Rachel’s vision, failing the rest of the cast’s talent, failing the play-write’s words. Failing the part of me that believed I would be great at this.
And I worked harder than I have worked in a long time. My old pre-kids processes did not really fit into my new mommy-of-preschoolers life, so I learned a lot about what type of & how much time I now need to carve out to give myself the headspace I need to work well. And I was reminded how awesome my husband is as he rushed away from his work each day to take the girls to dinner so I could get to rehearsal in time to take a breather minute.
And it paid off. I’m not going to pretend there weren’t hiccup days or melty emotional moments or times when my tongue & brain seemed to be at war over words, because all of that DEFINITELY happened. But at the finish line, it was beautiful to watch people’s faces feel things each night in the audience. And that felt like success.
So. That’s that.
Thank you to everybody who listened to me incessantly talk about “this play I’m doing, the first scripted theatre I’ve done since being a mommy” & cheered me on through the process and to all of you who came and watched the magic come together on stage.